not okay…

Six months ago. i was okay. i was content with what i do, with what i have and what not
although there are times that i am wishing for more but that doesnt affect me so much that it demotivated me.
then came my most dreaded happening. the re-shuffling. teams, managers and alike.

I felt terribly sad. but you know…things happen and
maybe i need to move on and give myself and my new mentor a chance.

But things are gradually changing now. I seem to be struggling with my new shift,
coming to work became a dragging experience and my everyday encounter with her is becoming stressful.

Well maybe im just over reacting. Im just so used with my previous manager’s way of things. Because with him, he let
us do our way. He treated us as grown-ups. He corrects us in a mature way. He always highlights our achievements and
coaches us in a way we wanted to be coached.

Ive been with a lot of supervisors for the past 3 years of my Call Center agent career and this is the first time that I
felt so stupid and helpless as a person. I maybe have  no right to judge her ways. I never been a supervisor myself but as
they say everyone can have the credentials to be promoted but not everyone has that ‘people skills’. And maybe thats what
she is lacking. Try as she may,she will never have that. Sad to say it is already innate to a person .

Maybe several months are enough for them to prove to me that its worthy to be with the company. That I ought to stay with
where I am right now. But instead, they gave me reasons. reasons to leave and find my place somewhere else. The thought
that they may not be able to defend me ticks me off…big time! Perhaps, I am no longer wanted and needed here. Maybe 2
years is enough. 2 years of temporary refuge with my company is all I’ve got.

I don’t know. I’m still not okay. And i don’t think its politically correct for her to ask me if im okay..because
she already know the answer to her stupid question. (obvious ba? HINDI AKO OKAY!!!!)

But at least Ive got my friends. at home and in the office. They’re my support group. I just love the feeling that
I am not alone. I still sleep peacefully. I still have them to back me up… and whatever it is I’m going through right now,
I’m sure it will end up as God’s plan…whatever it may be.